It's been a long time since I've updated. I've conducted many posts in my head but such things as tons of school work and trying every restaurant in NYC with Mabel tend to get in the way.
It is 4:30am and I cannot sleep. I've spent the last two hours tossing and turning whilst my mind skips from one problem to the next. Ever have a night like this where the dam breaks just as you get into bed and you are then flooded with negative thoughts and burdens? Tonight is one of those. I'm hoping by writing about some of these issues I will find some relief, albeit temporary.
First off, I am going to tackle the hysteria-mongers who are saying the end of the world is May 21st. As a Christian, it is particularly upsetting to me that these people are being associated with Jesus in any way. Since they call themselves Christians (or something) they ought to know what the bible says about this matter. Jesus specifically said that NO man knows the day or the hour of His return. The end. This shouldn't even be an issue. It saddens me that people are even listening to these predictions when this guy has been wrong twice already about this. There is one story in particular that i can't get out of my mind. A local man has taken his entire life savings, $140,000, and has used it all to fund posters and propaganda about these false teachings. How sad it will be for him and his family on May 22nd when they realize that they were mislead. I've done my fair share of laughing about it, but in all seriousness, lives are getting ruined here. It is really quite sad and it makes me angry as a Christian that these people are dragging God through the mud. All these freaks are doing is making it that much harder for normal Christians to be accepted by the world. I truly understand how it must feel for normal Muslims when the extremists go out and kill in the name of Islam.
Secondly, as I lie in my warm bed, typing on my iPad, I can't help but be burdened by the thought of all the girls and boys currently suffering as victims of human trafficking. how many of them are sleeping on cold and dirty floors? The only time they will probably see an iPad is when one of the pigs that solicits them for sex pulls one out to check his bank balance to see if he can afford more raping time. I think of all the girls whose pimps are the only father figure they will ever know. These pimps know this and they exploit it for all it's worth. They will buy the girls fake diamonds and tell them their daddy loves them. The girls will soak it up because it's the closest they will ever get to the familial love they so strongly desire.
On a more personal note, a dear friend of mine lost her husband last week. Due to her strong Russian nature, you would never know what heartache she is experiencing. I actually sat and conversed with her twice without ever suspecting anything had happened, and then she hit me with the news. As part of her coping skills, I was not allowed to feel sorry for her or to cry about it in front of her. Unfortunately, i have also not been able to get it off my mind. I've experienced the death of many of my nearest and dearest loved ones, and when I know someone else is going through it i cant help but go through it with them. Despite my best efforts to be as tough as she, my heart has simply been broken for her. I hope someday I can adequately communicate to her what a positive influence she has been in my life. She is one of the strongest, smartest, most caring people I've ever had the pleasure of knowing. I wish there was a way to make this all hurt less for her.
The sun is now fast appearing and I have not solved anything. However, I hope that after reading this you can come up with at least one thing that you are grateful for. I know I can. And there's comfort in that......
